Lesbehonest about weightloss.

I'll be honest.

I haven't focused on my weight loss in a while. I did pretty good when I meal prepped and after the food was done, I was pretty much done with the diet and the working out. 

Which got me thinking...

Why do I not want to work on my weight loss journey?

And this is where I had to be extremely honest with myself.

And this is what I came up with.

I just don't want to do anything about my weight

I don't believe I can do it.

It's hard.

I'll always be a "bigger" girl.

This breaks my heart...

It's like who have I become?

I remember how motivated I was to be my healthiest, and yet I can't even choose fruit over some tater tots.

I started to really try to connect why this time was different from all the other times.

I realized I wasn't mentally ready to lose the weight.

Weight loss is definitely more of a mental battle than anything.

And every time I would work out, and I couldn't keep up, it completely left me unmotivated, and validated that it's hard and I can't do it.

Then I get frustrated with myself because I always try to motivate others to be the best they can possibly be, and yet I'm not practicing what I am preaching.

Ugh talk about a slap to the face right there.

I look at all the amazing people I follow on IG and I am basically jealous of all that they have accomplished. And it makes me wish for those same results.

Not being mentally ready to lose weight is a challenge in itself.

SO now that I am done standing on my soapbox and having a violin play for my "feel sorry for me" speech.

This is the game plan.

I will schedule my workouts just as if I am going to class or an appointment.

I will prep my food for about 3-4 days at a time so that way I don't have an excuse to not eat healthy.

I will not go out to eat to temp myself with unhealthy choices, because I know myself and I will get the unhealthy choice no matter what.

I will document my workouts on IG (@pearshapedmama). If there is no picture, the work out didn't happen.

I am going to force myself out of this funk by taking it one day at a time.

I hope you all will help keep me accountable since I am putting this out there!

Let's do this together!! :)
 

Hope you all have a beautiful evening!!