New Year's Eve with a recap of 2012

Well here I am, sitting in my house watching Joyful Noise while my son and I just finished up a mickey mouse puzzle and my daughter is snoring with her fluffy white rabbit she got for her 5th birthday.

 

To me this is exactly the way I would love to begin my new year.

Relaxing in my house with my beautiful children.

 

Last new year's was a bit stressful and I was in an extremely uncomfortable environment, so this past year has been filled with plenty of ups and downs. I would say quite a few more downs than I expected, and more than I would have liked.

 

A few highlights from this year is that

- I was able to take two vacations, and on one of them I saw my brother! I haven't seen him since he came down to baptise my daughter. And I got to see my bestie whom I haven't seen in what feels like forever and a day.

- I have a really great job NOW. I am very lucky to get the position that I currently have.

- My daughters' father and I seem to be able to communicate a lot better than before, which is REALLY great for my daughter.

- My princess is finally getting along with her friends at school and is truly growing academically!

- My little man is doing so great with his speech! It is amazing on far he has come over the year!

 

I'm not sure if I'm calling what I have planned for 2013 Resolutions or just plan ol' goals. I am not really good at keeping up with resolutions, so maybe from now on I'll just call them goals.

I have a few things that I want to accomplish this upcoming new year.

- I am determined to get out of any and all debt that I may have and be completely debt free.

- I want to lose all the weight that I need to lose...ugh I know everyone and their grandma will be in the gym tomorrow...

- I want to build a better relationship with my children.

- I want to either move into a house or buy a house. I've always lived in an apartment, but my daughter asked if we could live in a house. Ugh hurt my heart when she asked that. Why I am determined to be debt free to put all my money towards a little house for my little family.

- I want to get as far as possible with school so I can get my bachelor's.

- Also to have more time management so I can update this little blog more often.

 

So I think that is quite a few good things for me in the upcoming year.

 

 

I am truly excited for this new year! Yay!

 

Until next time loves!

 



Why is she looking like a hot mess?!

WHOOOOAAAAA!!!!

 

I am actually sitting down and writing on my blog!! I can't believe it!

 

So where do I start?

 

Hmmm...Let's see I'm fat, sick, and exhausted. yup. That sums it up ;]

 

I've gained 17 pounds in this past month...That makes me depressed. How do I overcome this battle of being oBEAST? Ugh...well I guess dieting. Blah. My mom told me that she is going to buy me the first round of HCG. I know that it is probably not the best thing but I want to be able to look in the mirror and actually see change and actually be HAPPY...I'll let you know how it works out.

 

I haven't felt that great lately. Probably because I am fat and eat shitty food. I have constant headaches, dizzy spells, and can't sleep. I've recently have been taking melatonin to help me with sleep. Also I haven't really been able to concentrate at work which is not good.

 

I've been absolutely exhausted. I feel like I'm going to pass out all the time. During my lunch at my weekday job, I take about a 15 minute nap, because I can no longer keep my eyes open. Working two jobs 7 days a week is really hard on me. Especially while trying to raise my children by myself. Yes I made a choice to have children but I didn't make the choice of having to raise them myself. Oh well I have to just endure this difficult time.

 

I can't believe it is almost Christmas!!! It's my FAVORITE holiday!!! All the shiny things! All the endless crafts!!! It is amazing!! Except for the price tag...Blah. I am able to squeeze a couple of extra bucks out for a few cheap gifts for my kiddos. I hope they like the little things I was able to buy them. I know Christmas isn't about gifts, but I would love to give my children a lot more, unfortunately the income of a single mother doesn't allow such things. Ok I'll get off my soap box now ;]

 

Also I've been having a really difficult time with my daughter. She has no respect for me whatsoever. She screams, kicks, bites, etc to my son and I. I have no idea what to do at this point. I am trying to do a marble and stick approach to discipline her. I'll explain more in a few weeks. I want to try it out to make sure it is effective before I promote something. Also any parenting advise is welcomed:]

 

And to end this quick post before I pass out...

 

I would like to take a moment and praise the children that were taken too early from us on Friday morning.

My heart and soul is aching for the emptiness the families may feel. I look at my 1st grader and I can't even imagine...

 

 

Please know little angels, you are now safe with Him. Yes, you'll be missed deeply but know that one day you will see your mommy and daddy again.

 

I am not going to comment on the bastard who did this, he doesn't deserve any recognition whatsoever.

 

On a lighter note, I'll be posting pictures up soon!!

 

Well the melatonin is kicking in...

Night!

 

 

 

Must I?!?!

-Wake up every morning, disliking the person I see in the mirror?

- continue to be unhappy?

- not feel comfortable in my own skin?

- compare myself to others? 

- cave into cravings?

These are questions that go through my head. I have come to the terms that I really am a fatty. It's been quite some time since I've looked at a size Medium shirt and I feel like crying because of it. 

I am disgusted with the way I look and I feel like I cannot change. I see all the work that needs to be done, but to honest I feel that I am so far off that it would be impossible to EVER lose weight.

My heart is heavy so is my ass.

Just wanted you to know where I stand... 

I hope I will get the motivation I need soon.

How do you do everything?!

I get this question all the time.

How I manage to get everything done. Take care of the kiddos, my mom, house, work, school, etc.

To be honest, because things need to get done, and I am the only one here to do them. I don't have "back up", I guess you can say. I don't have anyone that can pick up the slack. For example, last week TJ had a thanksgiving lunch on Thursday, and then Eliana had a family picnic of Friday. I spent my lunch speeding to their school's to be there for them. I was able to make it and spend about 25 minutes with them. It sucks that I couldn't be there for the full amount of time, but at least I was there =]

 

 

&&& just to make things harder, I got a part time job on top of my full time job, kiddos, mom, and I've signed up for classes in the spring...what the heck did I do? ahaha I really hope I can manage to handle everything.

 

I got a 2nd job because I need to catch up on bills, save money for emergencies, and I also am not expecting to receive child support from my daughter's father anymore. Yes there is a court order, but when it comes to stuff like that and him, I don't think it'll come on a regular basis's now that he is in charge of it. So I have to ensure that my daughter is taken care of. My main job takes care of my son's needs. I haven't spoken much about it on here but my son has Epilepsy. It's scary to think that one bad seizure can cause more damage, or worse, it'll let to the end of his precious life. He had a bad seizure almost 2 years ago, and it has caused a lot of damage. It's still hard to deal with so that will have to wait for another post...but that is where about 90% of my income goes to is all his medical stuff.

 

Also Xmas is around the corner and last year I didn't have a lot of extra money for xmas gifts. So this year I am going to work my ass off so that way my kids will have a great xmas! Also I adopted a little girl for xmas. So what I get that little girl is all that she is going to get. How sad is that?! I wish more people would help these children.

 

 

If you can help, please do so. Anything helps for these kids.

 

So back to how do I do everything?

Basically I try to do most of my morning tasks the night before.

I actually do my hair the night before, pick out my kiddos outfits, as well as my own, get my purse, back-packs on the counter ready to go, get gas if I need to, etc.

In the morning I wake up about 2 hours prior to needing to be at work to ensure everything is ready to go. Eliana is NOT a morning person WHATSOEVER! So I spend most of my morning time dragging her booty out of bed trying to get her into a cute shirt. Don't get me started on trying to get socks on her feet. UGH! And TJ sleeps through out the whole dressing process. He is still asleep when I pull up to his daycare. ahaha it is freaking awesome and easy!

 

Also I use my phone calendar like there is nooooo tomorrow. I have alarms going off for EVERYTHING! Work, pick up times, assignments, doc appts, even when to pay my bills! I don't know what I would do with my calendar.

 

So that is basically how I get things done.

 

Sorry that this post is all over the place. It's how I roll.

Also I was thinking, if I ever get married what would this blog be called? It really can't be "singlemama"...Hmmm oh well I'll deal with that when the time comes! ;]

 

Have a good night you skinny bitches!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Hi, my name is Estefanie and I am a fatty.

yup.

 

The title sums it up. Since I've started this new position at work, alllllll day long I snack at my desk. Damn you drawers for being great food holders. UGH. Not only am I disappointed in myself, but I am disgusted by the way that I look. How can I be "MILF Status" if I look like a fatty? I've totally lost my mojo. I need my weight loss mojo, I NEED that rocking mentality back. I need help, I need a jump start. To be honest these look like excuses as I type them out.

 

I weighed myself two days ago, and my mouth literally fell out (that's what she said) because I was so in shock on how much I've gained in such a short amount of time. I really just want to cry and go to sleep. The clothes in the fat girl side of my closet are now getting tooooo tight. It's disgusting.

 

I just need to find my passion and mojo for losing weight again.

 

Anyone have any ideas on how to get that motivation back again?

I know that most say you just have to be mentally ready for it. To be honest, I really was but life hit me in multiple directions at once, and since I don't really have anyone to support me that lives by me, food is the next best thing. UGH. That sounds disgusting too.

 

 

I need a plan.

 

Time to get out the pen and paper and write down workout schedules, meals, and put post it notes EVERYWHERE, reminding me that I am a fatty and I don't want to be one anymore!

 

 

 

 

 

THIS.

 

Any advice is welcomed.

 

have a great night you skinny bitches! ;]

 

 

 

 



Hey you Hookstars!

So where do I begin?! These past few weeks have been insane!!!

 

In between getting new people at work and trying to somewhat train, halloween, my 21st (again) bday, and my mom having emergency surgery. I am a wreck yo!

 

All is good with the Madre, thank baby Jesus in a tuxedo shirt! Work is slowly coming along, halloween was a blast, and my birthday was a blast in a glass...if you know what I mean ;]

 

So this is going to be mostly a pic post because I am TIRED!! And I have to wake up early as hell. When I leave for work it is still flipping dark outside!

 

So on to the pics!!!

 

 

 

 

Aren't my kiddos the cutest little things EVER?!?! I may or may not have a biased opinion...

 

 

 

My 21st bday!! again...ahaha I am not as skinny as I was on my actual 21st bday =[

 

 

My co workers ROCK!!!

 

 

My bday was pretty awesome!!

 

 

Well it is time for bed for this single mama!

 

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Meal Planning.

So I've tried the whole juicing thing for about an hour and that didn't work out.

So now onto the next fun and exciting thing!

 

MEAL PLANNING!

I want to look into this. I think it will work for me, only thing that probably stop me is the fact that I am a picky eater.

 

 

My list of foods I don't eat:

 

- Seafood, pork, deer, rabbit, basically anything that is not ground beef or chicken.

- onions, tomatoes, pickles, squash, peppers, celery, asparagus, etc.

 

Those are major items in diet plans. So basically I don't like anything but the fatty foods, hence why I'm a fatty loving the fatty foods.

 

So I am going to attempt to make my own meal plan with the help of other meal plans.

 

 

 

 

Of course I would substitute the stuff I don't like.

&& I got these ideas from PINTEREST *follow me please*

 

So off to the store I go!

 

 

 

&&& just because this is super cute!

 

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Crafts!!

Alright, I know I haven't done much of crafts on here but at work we are going to have like a decorating contest or something. IDK. But what I do care about is being able to do something different then just orange and black. =]

 

So I took my ass to the dollar tree because I'm cheap and lets face it, I don't really want all these halloween decorations all over my damn house once I have to bring them home, so I want to be able to dispose most of them. So that brings us to the little orange pumpkins from the $ tree.

 

I didn't take a pic of them, oh well. If you are a fan of the dollar tree you know what little pumpkins I'm talking about.

 

I also went to Hobby Lobby (aka the place that steals my money). I bought some staches, paint, glitter, and letter stickers.

 

Also I did this right before bed so I pretty much did this half ass. So don't talk shit. Otherwise...Idk. I even talked shit so who cares!

 

 

So here is my process in pics.

 

 

 

 

 

&& the finished product!!! =]

 

 

I made one for my boss and I. My boss rocks! She is amazing! && she loves staches which rocks!

 

So yeah there you go for my crafts of the day!

 

Well I'm going to sleep. I am exhausted. I'm not feeling well. blah. and my foot hurts from dropping a coffee table on it. && I have to wake up at 4am tomorrow, so I am going to crash out!

 

Night you hookstars!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Holy-Grab-My-Boobs-Moment! Someone likes me!!!

So it looks like I've been nominated for the Liebster Blog Award!! WHHAATT?!?! I know! I can't believe it myself! I am utterly grateful to Justine Taylor from Tantrums and Tea Parties, whom nominated me for this awesomeness blog award! Too bad I can't nominate her as well; apparently there are no tag backs...blah. But I am however happy that she was nominated as well as she thought about me when nominating others.

So let me break down what this award is about:

 

It's an award that blogger's give out to other blogger's who have less than 200 followers, but definitely deserve more. SOOOO it seems that I deserve more followers! Come on you skinny bitches, hit that button! ;P

 

 

Here are the Rules:

 

- Each person tagged must post 11 things about themselves.

- They must also answer the 11 questions the tagger has set for them.

- They must create 11 more questions to ask bloggers they have decided to tag.

- They must then choose 11 bloggers to tag with less than 200 followers.

- These lucky bloggers must be told.

- There are NO TAG BACKS.

 

 

Alright here I go with my jiggly ass!!

 

11 things about my awesome self:

 

1. I'm tall for a girl. I'm 5'9 and yes, I LOOOOOVVVEEE to wear heels, which puts me over 6 feet tall with them on.

2. I love scary movies, but I can only watch them at night so I can really get into it.

3. My favorite time of year is basically from September - December. I get to decorate for all those months! How can nobody be ecstatic about that?!

4. I'm addicted to shopping. I get like this shopper's high every time I go shopping. I don't know how to describe it, but it feels AH-MAZING!!!

5. I like being by myself. Not all the time of course but I do like my ME time. I think it is important for people to separate themselves from everyone to just focus on themselves.

6. I have recently gotten back into religion and I think it's something I should have never lost.

7. California is where my heart is. I long to live near the beach again. Nothing can describe how I miss living down the street from the beach.

8. If I could, I would quit my job, and go to school full time, so I can start a career.

9. My fave colors are purple, black, and white. Which so happen to be my wedding colors. ahaha I don't even have a BF and I already have my whole wedding planned.

10. I can't stand wearing socks. My feet feel like they are suffocating in them...but don't they technically do so already with shoes?? IDK.

11. I'm sarcastic to the point where I don't even know if I'm joking or not sometimes. ;] Therefore most don't understand my humor...

 

 

11 Questions from Justine Taylor:

 

1. Is there anything you want to say to someone? Of course I do. Unfortunately I'll probaby never be able to say it.

2. Ever had a near death experience? If so, what happened? Yes, it happened while I was giving birth to my daughter. Possibly the scariest thing I've ever went through =/

3. Do you believe in Karma? Heck yes I do!!!! UMMM ringing in baby daddies!! ahahaha ;P

4. If you were paid $100,000, would you sleep in a supposedly haunted house for a night? Why wouldn't I do it for $100,000?!?!?! Ummm, can I start tonight?

5. What fictional character most resembles who you are? With this I'm going to have to go with Hester Prynne.

6. Would you want to cast in a reality tv show? Heck yes I do! Look how much money Snooki has made off of having a tan, drinking, and loving stuffed animals!

7. What would be the hardest thing (not person) for you to give up? I think it would be my cell phone aka electronic leash. Nowadays you can do everything on it.

8. You have three wishes. GO! I wish my kids grow up to be good people. I wish I was filthy rich to the point where I can just point at random shit and buy it with no hesitation and so I can roll in the money...naked with my new fake boobs! And for world peace! Gosh I would totally win Miss America with my answers! Flock yeah!

9. What is something you wish you could change about yourself? My skin. I have REALLY sensitive skin, so my skin is constantly breaking out. For example, I have little bumps on my arms, and they are from me being slightly allergic to the sun...yet I live in AZ...Yeah I know. Who's a genius with two thumbs?! THIS GIRL!!

10. What quality of yours do you hope your kids inherit? Hmmm...this one is tough. There are a few good ones to choose from. (Totally tooting my own horn right now), but I would have to say my Independence. I don't want my children to ever feel dependent of someone else to feel happy, wanted, loved, or anything of the sort. I want them to be able to stand their own.

11. What was the last dream you remember having? Ahaha it was the baby daddy and I arguing. This somehow causes WWIII...

 

 

11 questions for my nominees:

 

1. What do you want to accomplish before the end of the year?

2. What are you looking forward to about next year?

3. Who is your fave person and why? (could be someone famous, hero, parent, etc)

4. What is your secret addiction?

5. Who have you held a grudge on and why (I'm nosey.)?

6. Where would you go if you had an all paid vacation?

7. When did you first realize you were an "adult"?

8. Why do you blog?

9. How do you sleep?

10. Do you like weird smells? (rubber, nail polish, gas, etc)

11. If you could change anything in your life, what would it be and why?

 

 

Now for my 11 nominees:

 

1. Brandi @ Thin after Twins

2. Allison Kuehl @ Katillac Coach

3. Shelli @ Beauties and the Baseball Coach

4. Alyssa @ Clever Nest

5. Jennifer Adams @ Just Jenn

6. Kati @ Along for the Ryde

7. Becky @ One year to Hot Momma

8. Angel @ Simply Lovely Things

9. Marie @ The (not always) Lazy W

10. Christina @ Krazy Cutie

11. Jeannette @ Always Jeannette

 

 

P.S. You are not forced to participate whatsoever. However if you would like to, please link me to your post, as well as in my comment section so I can check out what you got going on. I hope this shows how awesome I think you are, and hopefully to bring light to your blog, so more people can see how rocking you are!

 

Thank you Justine Taylor! You ROCK! As well as all you other ladies!! =]

 

Night you Flocking Rockstars!

 

E

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Juicing sucks balls...

&&& NOT in a fun sexual type way...

 

 

I FAILED.

 

I didn't even get half way through the first NASTY ASS cup.

I felt like puking after I drank some, and I tried 3 different ways of swollowing this (ahaha thats what she said), I tried just drinking it straight. FAIL. I had no idea what I was walking into. Then I tried to drink it and then chugging water right after. FAIL. Then I tried holding my nose and drinking it. BIG FAIL. That almost made me puke. Not fun. So what did I do? Come lunch time I took my big ass to chipotle. Heck yes! That shit was AH-MAZING!!! I tore that burrito up! (thats what she said).

 

So juicing is a no-go. UGH. That means I'll have to eat healthy and exercise now...bummer.

 

ahaha time to get off my lazy ass anyways. BUT that can wait until tomorrow. I am flipping tired.

 

Anyone have any ideas on what I should do? I HAVE to wake up at 4-4:30 every morning (mostly 4:30, because the snooze button and I have a battle every damn morning) and I don't get home until around 4. Now this is where it gets crazy. I get my little shits, run errands such as dr appts, grocery shopping, etc, come home, cook dinner, do homework, bath time for everyone, get everyone tucked in with blankets and story time, then I blow dry my hair and curl it so that way I only have to touch it up in the am, then I lay everyone's clothes out, pack my food for work, clean up, and finally go to bed by 8pm, 9pm the latest. So I don't know where to fit in a workout. Any ideas? Yeah I know "where there is a will there is a way" blah blah blah, but this single mama is tired as hell and juicing didn't help it ahaha.

 

But I have to fit workouts in the schedule somehow. I'll just do it.

 

Well got to get started on my nightly schedule.

 

Hope y'all have a great evening!

 

E

HOLA!!

How is everyone doing?!

Sorry for the MIA again. Been a crazy week!! Trying to deal with October break from school for the princess, dealing with her healing throat (no fun WHATSOEVER!!!), dealing with HUGE changes at work, and being pulled in every direction.

So I finally have a few minutes to do a new post in between doing laundry, finishing up paperwork for work, getting everything ready to wake up at 4:30am (yes I said 4:30am....blah) and watching my NJ Housewives! OMGrapes do I love the NJ Housewives. They are cra cra and I LOOOOOOOVVVVVEEEE it! ahaha probably because my life is boring and I don't have that amount of drama in my life, Thank baby Jesus in a tuxedo shirt!ahaha =]

Anywho, at work I was informed that the person that was above me in our position was leaving the company and her last day was on Friday!! AHHHHH!!! She was my go to person for EVERYTHING! What am I going to do without her?! =[ So what does that mean?! I get the senior position! I don't know if I want it, but it looks like I have no choice but do go in that position. I don't think I could do as of a great job as this awesome chicka did. So just to show how much I appreciate her, I attempted to make an ediable arrangement!! And made a little arrangement of flowers =]

And just to show you how awesome my co worker is, and to show you what we do at work...

I know...Awesome right?!?!?!?! Ugh I'm going to miss her =[

Also I've talked about juicing before, but just never committed to it...UNTIL NOW!!!

That's right! Starting tomorrow, I am doing all juice for the next week! I am excited about it! I am doing this, with hopefully getting a jump start back into my weight rid journey. Why is it weight RID journey, because I don't plan on losing this weight and finding that shit again. So I got a juicer and did my prep for tomorrow!

So if I don't kill anyone tomorrow from my lack of food, I'll let you know how it went!

Well Eliana goes back to school tomorrow! I am excited for that! Ahaha not because I want to get rid of her or anything, but because I love to see how much she grows and learns at school! I REALLY lovvveee this teacher this year! I am sooo happy to see my baby thriving in her academic career! It is such an important thing for me to make sure she does the best she can! =]

Also her father is coming at the end of the month, so that is a good thing for her! We should be going to the AZ state fair for one of the days that he is here, so that should be fun! I know I don't talk about how I feel about this situation, but just to say a few things about it. I think he has improved on his parenting time. Before years went by, now its more like 6 or so months, which is great for Eliana. I am however bummed out that Eliana doesn't have a father in her everyday life, but one day she will. But unfortunately it won't be her biological father, but that's ok. I just want her to have a relationship with her biological father, however that relationship turns out, I just want them to try their hardest to form a great bond together. Enough about this stuff!

So onto my little trouble maker TJ!!! What is up with boys that are aged 3?! He is driving cra cra!!! He destroys, screams, throw tantrums, etc!! I don't remember it being this bad with Eliana. I love my son, but man sometimes I give myself a timeout away from him (I hide in my bathroom). Any advice on this?! He sure is a little shit. Well both of them are! Eliana is loving the whole I-AM-GOING-TO-NOT-LISTEN-AND-TALK-BACK-BECAUSE-I'M-GOING-TO-DRIVE-MOMMY-CRA CRA stage....AWESOME little shits! But I love them and wouldn't trade them for anything in this world!! Well except for nice, obident little replicas of them ;] ahaha

And just to show you Eliana's awesome photography skills!! She told me how to pose and everything!!! How awesome!

Well this singlemamaplus2 needs some sleep. Yay...5 hours of sleep!!!!

So night y'all! Love ya && thank you for reading about my boring life!

E

p.s.

I really do hope you readers like my blogger, if there is anything you want me to talk about, feel free to suggest things, and I'll try my best to do it! =]

Step 1.

So as I was saying in my last post I want to make some changes. Focusing around myself. Selfish maybe? But worth it, yes =] So I actually made a list of things I want to do, to make myself a better person!

 

And why not share my list?! Hello, that's why I've got a blog!

 

So here is it beetches!

 

Step 1. Get my hair did (ombre style)

Step 2. Buy new makeup! Yay!

Step 3. Buy a few new pieces of clothing. (I've bought a few, and don't really want to spend a lot on this one because of the following step)

Step 4. Get rid of 20 lbs off this MILF bod. ;P

Step 5. NEW SHOES!!!!! DUH. If you'd know me personally, you'd understand this =]

Step 6. Learn how to cook! I know how to get by *microwave items*, but I want to be able to cook a full course meal! I mean, I'm changing for the better so I know there will be a man coming my way, and I want him to stay so I'll feed him ahaha ;P

Step 7. Get back into photography! I LOVE photography! I miss working as a photographer.

Step 8. Finish EVER DAMN DIY project I have laying around my casa...ahahaha sounds easy, but if it were, it wouldn't have made it on the list.

Step 9. Make a book of all the things I want to do with my little shits, and do EVERY SINGLE ONE!

Step 10. Just be happy & positive. I'm now focusing on being calm, cool, and collective. Why not?! I can't control these bitches attitudes, BUT I can control mine =]

 

So there is my general list. I've gone more in depth with mine here at my casa, but you get what I'm trying to do. I'm not sure if I'm excited for any of this to tell you the truth. I feel a bit out of my comfort zone. I normally just focus on kids, work, and school. It feels weird actually taking the time out of my crazy busy days to focus on me. Hopefully after awhile it will change because I feel a bit guilty to be honest.

 

So now for the NEW HAIR!!!!

 

 

Still a bit unsure about it, but it's done and there is no turning back. I love the color tho!!! YAY! =]

 

And just for some happy positive shit to be added on here...

 

Pics from PINTEREST of course! Follow yours truly please! =]

 

So now it's on to the other stuff!

 

Also still haven't started juicing yet. I NEED to go grocery shopping for my fruits and veggies, to have my meals in a cup from now on. YAY.........................

 

We'll see how the happy and rainbow shit lasts when I am killing people with my look, because they get to eat will I get to suck my meal from a damn straw. ahahaha that sounds a bit dirrty. I like it ;]

 

Well you sexy beetches, have a wonderful night! I've got to show my FUCK-ME-RIGHT-NOW-HOT-WORTHY-ITALIAN-GUY my new hair ;] that sounds like a reasonable excuse to see him right?! ;P

 

ahaha Hey I'm single, and ready for some fun!

 

E

 

 



Once again...alllllll over the place.

Hey!!! I've got 3 readers now! YAY! Welcome! ahaha =]

 

Well I've been gone for so damn long, I feel like I need to catch you up to speed with everything. So prepare for tons of randomness and pics =] you know you love it ;]

 

So Eliana had surgery yesterday. Surgery = GREAT! Recovery = HOLDING DOWN YOUR CRAZY SCREAMING CHILD TO GET THAT DAMN MEDICINE DOWN HER THROAT! yeah it was a fucking blast! Still going too! yay.............

good news about that is her dad was there to help me a bit so that's good for her ;]

 

Here are some pics from the hospital! yay....

 

When we first got to the hospital, before she knew what was going to happen &&& of course baby daddy has to put his 2 damn fingers in it ahaha oh well she still looks cute =]

 

 

Figured out that the surgery left her in pain, so she hates the world, && before I had to hold her ass down.

 

 

&&& after we got that medicine in her. Thank baby Jesus in a tuxedo shirt for whatever man made in that medicine and knocked her ass out! ;]

 

 

 

Also it turns out the hospital makes "beautiful" quesadillas. All I know is that it rocked my face off (that's what he said).

 

My sleeping pattern is basically all screwed up. No bueno. At least I only have to work tomorrow and then have the weekend off! yay!

 

TJ is being a cra cra little mexican kid who needs a good ass whoopin! OMGrapes, this kid thinks he grew a pair and came up to me and put his damn little finger in my face to tell me NO!  and grunt?! All over a damn chair?! OOOOOHHHHH HELL NAW! got that boy on his ass for a nice time out that's for sho! Grunting at me? Boy you crazy!

 

Also I've been inspired to use these next few months to focus on ME! yes, ME! Some may say that is selfish because I am a mother, but would it not be selfish of me if I don't give the best mom I could be? Does that even make sense? who the hell knows. It's time for change & change is what I do best! Well now it is. I went to a psychic, yeah I know I know, and she even said something about this. In order for me to be where I need to get I have to focus on myself. I'm lacking in the whole take care of yourself department. I'm a mom so half the time my makeup is all joker like, my hair is crazy!, I don't even remember when is the last time I've had my hair done =[ So I want to look and be confident, and what better way then to change how you look?! Come on people, let's be real here, it's a superficial world nowadays. It's sad but it is what it is.

 

Got a few new clothes =]

 

 

 

That's all the pics I got for the clothes, been in the damn hospital like all week. Tomorrow I'm going to buy me a pair of shoes =] YAY!!!!! ESTEFANIE LOVESSSSSSS SHOES!!!

 

Also I'll be getting my hair did, hopefully this weekend! It's time to start looking like a MILF ASAP!!! Even though I'm not at the weight I want to be, I still want to feel the best I can while getting there! I'm also making a list of juice recipes that I will be doing over the weekend! It's time I get on that juicing wagon! I'll let you know how it goes!

 

Well I'm soooo flipping tired right now, I hope I made complete sentences in this post or at least sentences that make sense. Oh well! NIGHT Y'ALL! =]

 

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