New Year's Eve with a recap of 2012

Well here I am, sitting in my house watching Joyful Noise while my son and I just finished up a mickey mouse puzzle and my daughter is snoring with her fluffy white rabbit she got for her 5th birthday.

 

To me this is exactly the way I would love to begin my new year.

Relaxing in my house with my beautiful children.

 

Last new year's was a bit stressful and I was in an extremely uncomfortable environment, so this past year has been filled with plenty of ups and downs. I would say quite a few more downs than I expected, and more than I would have liked.

 

A few highlights from this year is that

- I was able to take two vacations, and on one of them I saw my brother! I haven't seen him since he came down to baptise my daughter. And I got to see my bestie whom I haven't seen in what feels like forever and a day.

- I have a really great job NOW. I am very lucky to get the position that I currently have.

- My daughters' father and I seem to be able to communicate a lot better than before, which is REALLY great for my daughter.

- My princess is finally getting along with her friends at school and is truly growing academically!

- My little man is doing so great with his speech! It is amazing on far he has come over the year!

 

I'm not sure if I'm calling what I have planned for 2013 Resolutions or just plan ol' goals. I am not really good at keeping up with resolutions, so maybe from now on I'll just call them goals.

I have a few things that I want to accomplish this upcoming new year.

- I am determined to get out of any and all debt that I may have and be completely debt free.

- I want to lose all the weight that I need to lose...ugh I know everyone and their grandma will be in the gym tomorrow...

- I want to build a better relationship with my children.

- I want to either move into a house or buy a house. I've always lived in an apartment, but my daughter asked if we could live in a house. Ugh hurt my heart when she asked that. Why I am determined to be debt free to put all my money towards a little house for my little family.

- I want to get as far as possible with school so I can get my bachelor's.

- Also to have more time management so I can update this little blog more often.

 

So I think that is quite a few good things for me in the upcoming year.

 

 

I am truly excited for this new year! Yay!

 

Until next time loves!

 



Why is she looking like a hot mess?!

WHOOOOAAAAA!!!!

 

I am actually sitting down and writing on my blog!! I can't believe it!

 

So where do I start?

 

Hmmm...Let's see I'm fat, sick, and exhausted. yup. That sums it up ;]

 

I've gained 17 pounds in this past month...That makes me depressed. How do I overcome this battle of being oBEAST? Ugh...well I guess dieting. Blah. My mom told me that she is going to buy me the first round of HCG. I know that it is probably not the best thing but I want to be able to look in the mirror and actually see change and actually be HAPPY...I'll let you know how it works out.

 

I haven't felt that great lately. Probably because I am fat and eat shitty food. I have constant headaches, dizzy spells, and can't sleep. I've recently have been taking melatonin to help me with sleep. Also I haven't really been able to concentrate at work which is not good.

 

I've been absolutely exhausted. I feel like I'm going to pass out all the time. During my lunch at my weekday job, I take about a 15 minute nap, because I can no longer keep my eyes open. Working two jobs 7 days a week is really hard on me. Especially while trying to raise my children by myself. Yes I made a choice to have children but I didn't make the choice of having to raise them myself. Oh well I have to just endure this difficult time.

 

I can't believe it is almost Christmas!!! It's my FAVORITE holiday!!! All the shiny things! All the endless crafts!!! It is amazing!! Except for the price tag...Blah. I am able to squeeze a couple of extra bucks out for a few cheap gifts for my kiddos. I hope they like the little things I was able to buy them. I know Christmas isn't about gifts, but I would love to give my children a lot more, unfortunately the income of a single mother doesn't allow such things. Ok I'll get off my soap box now ;]

 

Also I've been having a really difficult time with my daughter. She has no respect for me whatsoever. She screams, kicks, bites, etc to my son and I. I have no idea what to do at this point. I am trying to do a marble and stick approach to discipline her. I'll explain more in a few weeks. I want to try it out to make sure it is effective before I promote something. Also any parenting advise is welcomed:]

 

And to end this quick post before I pass out...

 

I would like to take a moment and praise the children that were taken too early from us on Friday morning.

My heart and soul is aching for the emptiness the families may feel. I look at my 1st grader and I can't even imagine...

 

 

Please know little angels, you are now safe with Him. Yes, you'll be missed deeply but know that one day you will see your mommy and daddy again.

 

I am not going to comment on the bastard who did this, he doesn't deserve any recognition whatsoever.

 

On a lighter note, I'll be posting pictures up soon!!

 

Well the melatonin is kicking in...

Night!